I PRACTICE yoga 3 days a week . I’ve always appreciated that it’s a yoga practice. There is no perfect in yoga. There is only a desire to improve yourself each practice. Some days I am better, stronger, more balanced. Others, well, not so much. But I go in knowing it’s a practice and in the long run I’m better just for showing up.
But when I step outside the studio, into the world, I see and I feel the pull to not admit failure, to not admit the need for help, to expect each day to see progress in those things I am focusing on. I forget that there is no perfection. I forget that just showing, some days, is enough and to be grateful. I forget that each day is practice.
That forgetfulness can create consuming stress. Even paralyzing stress.
For me, it shows up in places that surprise me. I don’t feel it, most of the time, at work. I’ve been in the workforce for a long time now and I’ve learned how to cope and adjust. But I do think it’s what’s impacting my pace of writing lately. I know others are reading, so that’s extra pressure. When I didn’t know who or if anyone was reading, it was easier. Lately I have a little devil Kimberly on my shoulder asking me, Is that good enough? Will they find that valuable? Is that sentence pretentious?…you get the picture.
So tonight, sitting on my front porch on a beautiful spring evening (probably sipping wine), I’m trying to work it through with this post, just admitting it’s working against me, so it’s working against my BigLifeVision.
For me, my vision includes helping others find their vision, live their vision. My vision is sitting on my porch next to my SO. My vision is loving and raising my sons. It’s also a place I get visits from that stressed out little devil Kimberly. My vision is as big as my dreams, as big as life. And I’m not perfect anywhere. But when I focus on the imperfection that is life, not the vision itself, I am failing myself. And this I need to remember.
So I’m practicing, each and every day. Some days I’m healthy, strong, fit, and balanced; some days I just am…and that’s ok.
Welcome to my BigLifeVision practice…What are you practicing?
Porch sitting, wine drinking, vision living PRACTICE.