Recently, my mojo has been missing. It’s been a rough last quarter of the year, and the last month of the year was harder than I was prepared to handle. While I don’t want to belabor it, I think there is a lesson worth sharing with you so I’ll start with some basic facts.
I left my job, my team, my organization of 18 years. I landed quickly, and all is well, but the relationship I had with the American Cancer Society was longer than any relationship outside of my family. It’s not been easy, but it was necessary.
My SO was notified he, too, would be losing his job, at the American Cancer Society. Whoa….
But that’s not even the worse of it.
Sisters
I lost my sister. My beautiful, 41 year old sister, to pneumonia. And it was a shock. And it was unexpected. And it happened so fast that I didn’t get to talk to her one last time. She just got sick, then sicker, then her body gave up. She was one of my people, and I was one of hers – even if we didn’t discuss it all that often. This loss has been more difficult that I can begin to express.
So my mojo has been missing and I’ve spent the last 3 – 4 days looking for it. Today I felt it emerge for the first time in awhile….it’s feels good to feel a little more normal today.
What does this have to do with BLV? I think it’s important to recognize that personal mastery is a practice and a journey. Some days will be harder than others. That is okay. A bad day, week, month doesn’t mean that you give up. Part of personal mastery is honoring where you are. During these times, when reality feels so heavy that you can’t bare it, find that thing on the horizon to look to that is part of your vision. Find it and don’t take your eyes off it. Keep doing it, until things start to feel lighter, until you feel lighter. Then you’ll find your way back. For me that was focusing on some of the amazing travel we have planned for 2015. For you, it can be anything that brings you closer to your vision. Anything.
What I also think is important when you’re off your game or your mojo missing is to:
- Feel the emotions. To deny the stress, sadness and depression I have had this month would be a fool’s errand and would just prolong the healing and change process. Feel it, own it, and let it find its place in your life.
- Ask for help. Ask a professional if you are truly bad off. Ask family, friends, lovers, anyone you trust to help you. Surround yourself with love. The world is a better place when we realize we are not alone.
To say I am grateful to my family and friends who have surrounded me with love over that last month would be a sad understatement. I only know to say thank you, you know you who are “gang”…
I’m not saying I am 100% yet, but I’m closer today than I was yesterday and I’ll keep focusing on what I can vs. what I can’t control.
There you are, mojo – nice to see you.
Very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved sister. Honouring the space you are in gives the energy the opportunity to shift. If we stuff it down, it can easily become a depression, where all the good feelings are also stuffed under the layer of ‘I don’t / can’t feel this’. Sharing your truth is courageous – a huge help to others feeling ‘crushed like a grape ~ Rumi’.
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It’s important to admit a loss of mojo because honesty and lack of denial are anchors for vision. And to pretend that’s all’s OK when it isn’t stalls us. Thank you for role modeling how to acknowledge, dust off, and move forward.
Pamela – I totally agree with your take on this! /g
Timely and relevant. Thanks Kimberly.
To inspire during times of tragedy, that’s the stuff that powerful people are capable of. I am very sorry for your loss. As someone who recently took a hit to their mojo as well your words couldn’t have come at a better time. I plan to take action and keep it moving, as you so eloquently have as well. Much success and happiness in 2015!
You are surrounded with love – because you always share. Keep smiling, and keep coming back. Hugs!
There are sisters by blood, sisters by marriage and sisters of the heart. All can be special. I feel with you as a sister of the heart. I know that when you have a sister who is two of those things, the pain of loss is even greater…but then again so is the joy of having loved them. Namaste.
Hi KC:) Your first bullet point spoke to me. You are very wise young one. Thanks for sharing:)
Love you my mojo master.