a little BLV reminder from the dearest of friends
I was driving yesterday, and a song I love found me like an old friend. It came on, put its arms around me and reminded me of a time when everything didn’t feel as hard. That prompted me to find another old friend, another old friend and one more. By the end of the ride home I was somewhere between crying and laughing but I felt closer to myself than I had in a long time. It was a gift.
Someone asked me last week, what do you do to stay focused on your vision. I was honest with her, I am struggling right now. I know every leader has these times but I surprised myself with the truthful answer. I tend to hide stuff like this. After all, I am the #BigLifeVision girl.
From my last post you know I’ve been struggling with self-leadership. But I’m working to consistently lead my self again and it’s possible this car concert sitting in hellish Friday traffic confirmed my path back.
Part of that path back has been letting go of anger and finding forgiveness. I’ve been carrying a lot of anger around and aiming it at a lot of places, including myself. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not sitting in a dark room brooding. But I find myself angry for small reasons and carrying anger with me for longer than I should. Anger is not a positive emotion, it is limiting and restrictive. It is usually focused on what has already happened, not what could be. Anger is not healthy or effective leadership, it is the opposite of vision. So I’m letting mine go, I’m focusing on forgiveness and I’m moving forward.
So to answer my friend’s question: I am going to yoga, I am taking walks, I am reminding myself of the amazing things in my life, I’m writing, I’m starting to focus on the future again, drinking out of this awesome cup and relying on friends to help me and I’m singing, LOUDLY, in my car.